just do.

The battle is raging
between brutally honest
and scared shitless


i only wish that i could be like tangerine
dye my hair and change my name
or like alice
quit my job and move to a foreign land


it seemed easy when jack and allen did it
but i reckon they only made it look that way


for some reason i thought passion was enough.

rain

 

inspire.

here's to reaching in and digging deep
to looking for answers
when you feel like quitting
to making your own path
when you've lost direction
to being your own boss
when you can't find anyone to show you the ropes

some days you just need a little hope.

enjoy the journey

it's hard sometimes. when life gets so chaotic, our to-do lists flow with such length, our goals tower over us, and the expectations we place upon ourselves are so heavy that we can't even make it to bat.

but day in, day out, that's what we have. the call may never come. and even when it does, we can't really know what it's going to bring.

friends shouldn't be taken for granted. health shouldn't be an assumption. decisions shouldn't be made lightly.

i have been so anxious the last few days that work has frustrated me, the phone calls from my friends have let me down, and when i go on my daily runs, i am merely running from myself. that's not how i want to live. that's not the person i intend to be.

be true. be you. and don't forget about the journey.

"I think you're crazy"

I remember when, I remember, I remember when I lost my mind
There was something so pleasant about that place.
Even your emotions had an echo
In so much space
Gnarls Barkley

Everything is up in the air. And that's just how it has to be for now. So I wake up each morning and take the adrenaline, the anxiety, the fears, the foresight and I run with it. I run towards the future. The future hopes of one day having a career, running a marathon and being an artist.
I run. Even if it all makes me a little crazy. And just take those moments when they come to enjoy the small things.

26.2

I have to run. It's in my heart. I can't help it. No matter how many times I quit, no matter how many months I take off, the first time I pull my running shoes back on, and hit the pavement, I know I'm exactly where I belong.
I think it's time to consider running the City of the Oaks full marathon. I have until 6/30 before the price goes up. If I can run a half marathon by then... then I suppose I should do it.

spring.

the scent of honeysuckle is filling my backyard and it couldn't make me happier.

it's hard to believe it's already may. after backpacking last weekend, we came home to a cat in distress under house arrest... the week sort of escaped us, so much cleaning to do to get the smell out. cat urine is probably the worst thing that I have ever smelled. I will spare you the detailed description, let's just say we threw out nearly everything that had even the smallest visible drop on it.