dear summer

dear summer,
you are going by far too quickly. i can't believe i missed the equinox and already the days are getting shorter as we head back towards winter (albeit there are still plenty of humid days ahead). my life is on track and my plate is full. i am plenty busy getting my ideas together to begin blogging for goodnight, raleigh as well as revolver. and now i am volunteering for sparkcon bazaar spark. i couldn't be more excited to finally be getting involved with the people i have been silently envying for so long. i have no idea where this road will take me. but it feels good to be on it. i feel that i have also found bikram hot yoga to be the missing piece in this equation of self, the glue that reignites my passion and pushes away my anxiety and insecurity. there aren't enough hours in the day so i am going to do the best i can to use the ones i've got.

sincerely,
jenn

Views from the top

These are some of the photos I took from the Empire State Building during my trip to Manhattan. We got VIP access to the top, a journey that I wouldn't have otherwise taken. Evidently there are 3.5 million people that visit each year. They line you up, pass you through security, take your photo in front of a green screen and then pass you up to the 80th floor. Once you make it to the 80th floor, you wait. The entire floor is dedicated to keeping you inline... one more elevator ride and you arrive at the observation area. It's certainly a bit congested, and quite a bit windier than down on the street level, the views are phenomenal, a bit surreal actually.

20 in 2010 update 2

solo goals
3. Learn more about the practice of yoga.
I went! I did it! I tried it! I loved it!!! I attended my first ever Bikram/hot body yoga class at open door studio and it rocked!
4. Post my artwork on Etsy.
I deviated slightly here... I set up a table at Traffic Jam instead... I might stick with that for a little while longer until I get some of the kinks worked out.
5. Begin training for a tri.
I've deviated here too... I am running. I'm not sure if I want to do the half marathon in >2 hours or run the full... we'll see!

group goals
2. Paint the living room, bathroom and office.
I spent all day cleaning them... we finally bought paint for the office... and we're still working on cleaning out the front room.
5. Plant a garden in my backyard.
The garden is in full bloom. Now I just need to spend more time weeding it.
6. Participate in a collaborative art project.
Sparkcon volunteer meeting monday.
group drawing the monday after.
Registered and ready to become a goodnight, Raleigh writer

things are coming along :)

just do.

The battle is raging
between brutally honest
and scared shitless


i only wish that i could be like tangerine
dye my hair and change my name
or like alice
quit my job and move to a foreign land


it seemed easy when jack and allen did it
but i reckon they only made it look that way


for some reason i thought passion was enough.

rain

 

inspire.

here's to reaching in and digging deep
to looking for answers
when you feel like quitting
to making your own path
when you've lost direction
to being your own boss
when you can't find anyone to show you the ropes

some days you just need a little hope.

enjoy the journey

it's hard sometimes. when life gets so chaotic, our to-do lists flow with such length, our goals tower over us, and the expectations we place upon ourselves are so heavy that we can't even make it to bat.

but day in, day out, that's what we have. the call may never come. and even when it does, we can't really know what it's going to bring.

friends shouldn't be taken for granted. health shouldn't be an assumption. decisions shouldn't be made lightly.

i have been so anxious the last few days that work has frustrated me, the phone calls from my friends have let me down, and when i go on my daily runs, i am merely running from myself. that's not how i want to live. that's not the person i intend to be.

be true. be you. and don't forget about the journey.